MKN
1 of the 10 commandments is to love God. I'm not trying to be irreverent here. I'm just being honest. I am having a hard time loving God. I see him is cruel, (and I don't mean to sin against holy spirit here), a liar who doesn't keep his word or promises, unfair, sadistic. Not only do I have a hard time loving God (or trusting him), but I just plain have a hard time liking him. I don't like him. Please forgive me. I'm trying to love and like him. But after 60 years of him allowing evil to crap on me and not coming to my rescue I don't like him. I see a world of horror where animals eat animals to survive. His creation. All my life has been horror. Hell on earth. I won't go into detail. Bottom line. Please pray God shows me his goodness, trustworthiness, compassion, mercy, grace. I'm having a hard time with this.