Troubled
When I see a squirrel that recently got hit by a car squirming on the road I want with all my heart to stop the pain. I don't have that ability, sadly. But when I see an animal video where they are in pain my heart wants the pain to stop. Perhaps God put this compassion in me. But my question is why God don't you have the same compassion for me? If you put it in me it must be in you? Does it glorify you to know a sinful human has more compassion for a squirrel than you do for me? My pain is going to lead me straight to hell and make me not only lose faith in you, but if you exist, in your goodness. Heck, you suffered on the cross to save souls, yet when my pain is so great I'm about to lose all faith in you (and thus my soul), one would think you'd follow through. You already did the hard part, right? It doesn't fit the narrative and makes me doubt even more each time I pray and you don't answer it chips away at my already mustard size faith. Please do Something! NOW! Please grasp the gravitas here. I'm on my last leg. My soul is in danger. No The-checks-in-the-mail promises where the check never comes false hope. I need action from you, now, Lord.