Mike K
Pray God heals me of my porn addiction, life stresses, and disbelief. These three things are interconnected. First: disbelief. I'm hanging by a thread of faith. My faith in God's existence and the bibles veracity is almost gone. I am pondering of late if the bible is like Greek mythology now. Why? Because I can pray to a stone stature of Zues (not that I intend to) and get the same response from God. I know the promises in the bible, but despite praying no answer has ever come.
My life has been 60 years of loneliness, failure, broken dreams, unanswered prayers, and struggle with depression and poverty. I have no friends (not one), no family, no wife but I have many enemies in demon attacks and in humans against me.
When I get so profoundly sad and my life is pure misery I lose my faith from the overwhelming load that has been on me for decades. Jesus said if you are heavy laden and weary to come and he will give rest and an easy yoke. But he hasn't. Thus, I'm losing faith fast and wondering if the bible is a lie and if there is no god. And with that, instantly I figure if there is no God I might as well look at porn because that is the only pleasure I get in life. See how this rapidly goes downhill? Thus, I ask for your prayers. Not only to defeat porn addiction, but also the precursors to that. I ask that God removes the load on me and reveals himself to me as real.
Even the apostle Paul who aided in the killing of St Stephen would have died not believing in Christ unless God revealed him as real. I need that kind of Damascus road miracle where God shows me he is real. Once, that happens, when temptation comes, I then will have a foundation to resist. Please pray this happens.