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Anonymous

Hi there. I would like to ask you to please pray for my heart. A couple of weeks ago, the week before Thanksgiving, my husband confessed he was watching inappropriate videos behind my back alone in his office before work. He did not tell me immediately when it happened, but kept it a secret for a few days while lying to my face and telling me everything was okay. In addition to lying, he was acting spiteful and distant, right down to insulting how I spoke when I was sharing Scripture with him when he (unbeknownst to me) was grappling with what he had done and was lashing out. (I was sharing Scripture to try and comfort him.) When he finally told me, we took a deep-dive into the Bible and talked about what it says regarding sexual sin, as well as other things that were bothering him. I forgave him and we moved on from the incident.

However, the shock from the news has worn off, and I am left feeling depressed, betrayed, and inadequate as a wife. I also feel very insecure, I am suspicious of him basically all the time, and I am afraid he will relapse again. Additionally, coupled with the fact that he told me he was noticing attractive women at work several months ago, I am now legitimately afraid he will have an affair. I am afraid of this because he suffers from a sexual addiction stemming all the way back to early teenagerhood--as early as 13 years old--with repeated porn use, so this habit was prevalent as his mind developed. He told me he would never look at inappropriate videos again, but he did. He tells me he will never cheat on me with someone else, but now I can't trust him.

I have been clinging hard to the Lord during these difficult days, and I have been relying on Him to get me through this. I feel I can't tell family or friends because I don't want to ruin their perception of my husband. I feel completely and utterly alone, and all I can do is pray. In addition, we were planning to have a baby within the next year, but now the idea makes me feel sick to my stomach, especially because I heard that many men tend to turn to inappropriate content when their wives are pregnant. I don't want to take that risk, nor do I want to confront the possibility of an affair with a baby in the house. I feel completely lost and shaken, and I don't know what to do. Please pray for my weary heart. Thank you so much.

Received: December 3, 2024

Jenna Lindholm

Really need some prayer help. My husband just came home from work, early. Its still before noon here. Not good. He told me he was doing time sheets or something & he got this email saying there was an error in his work & to correct it. So he made the mistake of thinking it was about what he was doing. It wasn't. It was a spammer/test that the company sends out to see if they are paying attention. He clicked on this email & it was spam/test. He failed. He did this once before a year ago & his job was on the line. But this is the 2nd time, it was a mistake, but this company, if I told you who he works for everyone knows this company, they will probably fire him on the spot. He hasn't heard anything yet, but someone in the upper echelons of the I T dept knows. He could be out of a job. To me, this could be an answer to prayer. I have been asking God constantly since we moved here to this HUGE city, for a way out of here. One day while I was in my closet getting dressed the Holy Spirit out of nowhere, asked me "Where do you want to move to?" I told Him, The Grand Canyon. I love my little house, I do, but I hate where we live. This is not home. I want to go home. We have nothing & no one here. I want my husband to be ok with his job, but I want to go home. To the Grand Canyon, to the ocean. This is not home. I want to go home please. We have no church, no friends, no family, nobody to study or fellowship with. This is not home. Please pray for my husband in this situation. I trust God. My husband told me what happened, I told him, All things work together for good. Even this. Thanks for your time. Maranatha !

Received: December 3, 2024

Katherine

Please pray that Edens will repent and accept Jesus as her Lord and Savior.

Received: December 3, 2024

Maryjo Hillman

I want to thank everyone who’s been praying for my friend Lenor’s mom , Letty , they are so grateful for all the prayers , please continue to pray because even though there is progress her heart beat still needs to stabilize and her lungs need to be clear , and she needs to become strong enough to walk again , so she can come home again . Merry Christmas to you all . And God bless you.

Received: December 3, 2024

D’Nae Galloway

Please continue to lift up my daughter, Rylee, in your prayers. She just found out her soon to be ex is pursuing another relationship. Even though it is over, this divorce was due to his addictions so her heart is broken. She goes to court tomorrow. Please also pray that she will do well on her class finals. Please also continue to pray for God’s will to be done in my work. Pray that I will get out of His way, and just surrender all to Him. Thank you for your prayers

Received: December 3, 2024